Day 1

Day one was well on its way to perfection... until the dreaded nighttime snacks! Argh. I am a perfectionist in some ways, so it totally bums me out my first day of committing to this program did not go as I wanted. Unlike my mindset last Friday though, I refuse to give up this time. So, I messed up. Yeah, that really sucks. Tomorrow will be better! Every day from here on out will continually become easier, therefore I'll be able to make better choices.

Monday Weigh In: 215.2 lbs

Breakfast: 20 oz juice (apple, orange, lemon, carrot, broccoli, cucumber, pear, beets, celery, bell pepper, spinach) with tbs ground flaxseed, banana

Activity: 25 min bike ride in the gorgeous sunny weather

Lunch: Southwestern black bean burger on a toasted pita with grape tomatoes, orange

Activity: 20 sit ups

Dinner: Sauteed garlic, onions, mushrooms on a toasted pita, salad (romaine, onion, carrot, grape tomatoes, red bell pepper) with black beans and ranch, banana, white bean soup (great northern beans, garlic, onions, celery, carrots, orange bell pepper, grape tomatoes, coarsely ground black pepper, lots of cayenne pepper), 12 saltine crackers, apple

Snack: Buttered popcorn with Whoppers, a small cinnamon roll, half cup of 2% milk

Thoughts: Damn you, buttery popcorn! One bad choice led to a significant amount of other bad choices after dinner (I never drink cow's milk, what was that!). I really thought if I ate a lot at dinner, I could over come my habitual snacking while we watched TV. I felt the sweet tooth coming on so I had an apple. Yeah, that shit didn't work for me. Grr. I'm frustrated with myself.

But there are many things I accomplished today to be proud of, so I have to focus on that. The exercise is a start in the right direction. The juicy grape tomatoes on my pita made me glad I didn't use any spread with the black bean burger cuz it really didn't need it. I did the dishes this morning knowing if I spent some time in there, it'd force me to cook. Since I had a bunch of great northern beans soaking the night before, I knew I better cook 'em up instead of letting them go to waste. Didn't beat myself up all day about my weigh in.. gotta start somewhere. I know next Monday, I'll be happy to share the results of week 1! Honestly, this whole not berating myself / focusing on the positives is a huge change for me, and it will help me attain everything I want out of life.